I Forgot How To Have Phone Sex.

I FORGOT HOW TO HAVE PHONE SEX.

This is pretty random to be honest but it's something that I recently discovered . I forgot how to have phone sex.  I was having a conversation with my love and she requested we have phone sex. I ain't even lie to her... I straight up told her. "I'm awkward",. She laughed, which of course made me laugh.  Looking at it in retrospect she probably wasn't even all the way serious when she made the request .it was awkward telling her that I'm awkward but I wasn't about to embarrass myself by saying something stupid..I just can't do it.  I never been good at faking the funk.   Let Me Explain

I hope she don't kill me for saying any of this but I'm just expressing myself . I have been in a relationship with this amazing woman going on 2 years in February and we pretty much lived together the entire time. From the beginning. I literally went to North Philly and never came back home (to West Philly)This is my first real relationship. We were doin the wild thing consistently since the day before Valentine's Day 2016; see "Oh Tyra". Phone sex was a thing of the past. Childish to me.I felt it was counter-productive and highly unnecessary because c'mon lets be real...who needs HBO when you're having "Real Sex". I even stopped jackin off. Not even on purpose, I damn near forgot how to do that too...aight I'm lyin but y'all get the point. Dirty talk was only necessary when performing.. Another realization was that I was probably only good at (I think) phone sex in the past because it wasn't something I had to physically prove. I was barely fuckin before I got into a relationship. I never had game. I never had the juice, soda or even sugary ass Kool Aid  If my rhymes were as colorful back then as the pictures I'd paint through my now cringe-worthy words of conviction I woulda had 3 classic albums , a Grammy and a Oprah interview. This also makes me think of my days as a thirst hound on social media...yea I was that dude in the DMs..I just wasn't persistent enough to become a victim of being put on blast like some of the other guys. Fuck dhat. Maybe that  subconsiously showed my underlying lack of confidence but whatever the case was, I wasn't gonna work up a sweat trynna sweat you. I just wasn't doin it. I took no for an answer. This post isn't about me putting my relationship on front street... (ugh Front Street, i miss Philly so fuckin much man). This isn't to make y'all laugh.. (but it's cool if you do because I myself kinda find this subject pretty comical.). I'm just displaying self reflection. So let me reflect.
-Pop